OK where do I start? I am Jane, I am also 55 widowed for 10 years now. I had a great sex life with my husband until he got killed in a car accident. It took me a long time to get over it and if truth be told I am still not, but I am better and last year I decided to make a clean break of it all and moved out of London to a very small village in the south of England. My new home was just at the edge of the village, a small cottage, with the biggest back garden ever. It took me around a year to get it all the way I wanted. I put a big fence round the whole back garden making it very private, The bottom half I dedicated to growing flowers but I set aside the area closest to the house and my recreation area. I got a summer house build with a gazebo next to it where I put a hot tub. The gazebo has removable sides for the summer and can be put on for the cold weather.
I kept myself to myself for that first year but last March I decided it was time to get out there and meet people again. It was a very nice spring day and I put on a nice new summer dress, now I may be in my 50s but I don't look it. I am very short just a little over 5 foot tall I am also nice and slim and have always taken care of myself and kept myself fit. My breasts have always been small, almost none at all, all the women in my family are the same, as a result I have never had to wear a bra unless I wanted too. I got on my push bike and took a ride into the village, I stopped at the one and only pub and decided I wanted a gin before I went on. I had never been in the pub before but it was like a pub that time forgot, It was like walking into the past. The only people in there were 4 old men playing dominos. I sat at the bar and in walked a pretty woman who turned out to be the owner. She knew who I was and said it was about time I came in, small village everyone knows everything. I introduced myself and she told me she was Laura 42. We talked for about 3 hours and I had way too much gin to get back on my bike to ride home. I walked home feeling more drunk than I ever had for years. I woke up the next morning still in my dress and had slept on the couch. I treated my hangover and remembered I had left my bike at the pub. It was a really warm day and I showered and put on another summer dress, a white one. I put on white cotton panties but didn't bother with a bra and walked towards the pub. I was almost there when it started to rain, not just a shower this was a downpour. Even though I ran by the time I got to the pub I was so wet, I doubt I could have got wetter by jumping into a swimming pool. Laura had just opened the pub so when I burst in I was the only one there and it was just as well because I discovered my dress was almost transparent when wet. My small breasts were showing through and because the dress was sticking to me and my panties were also wet you could make out my thick pubic hair also. Laura couldn't help herself and burst out laughing. She took me through the back to her home before anyone else came in the pub. She gave me some towels and said I should dry off. I thought she would leave me too it but she grabbed the bottom of my dress and pulled it up over my head. I took my panties off and dried myself. She came back with a gin for me as I sat on her couch covered in a towel. She took my clothes and put them in the dryer. I was sitting drinking my gin when in walked Laura's daughter, Karen. What shocked me more was she was totally naked, she never batted an eye when she saw me and just said hello. Laura came back in and said sorry about her daughter. I said not to worry as we were all girls, but I have to say Karen was beautiful, her breasts defied gravity. Laura told her to go get dressed and take over the bar. Laura told me that because it was just her and Karen they never bothered much with clothes. I laughed and told her not to worry and when I was married my husband and I would walk about naked also.
Over the next few months I would visit the pub almost every day and I became very good friends with Laura. I also drank more than I ever had in my life. I met a few other people from the village but by far I spent most of my time with Laura.
One Sunday It was very warm that day and I called Laura and told her I was going to spend the day in the garden and asked if she wanted to come join me and to bring gin. I told her just to come into the garden and when she came in I was sunbathing naked. I was on my front and didn't hear her come in. She came over to me and poured some gin right over my bum, it made me jump up and I could have slapped her but she was laughing like a schoolgirl. I sat down and she started to take her clothes off, as she did something stirred in me that had not stirred since my teens. She took off her bra and let her massive boobs free, she pulled her panties off and I saw she was totally shaved. Again my thoughts went back to my teens when I had a crush on my best friend, all I did back then was kiss but seeing Laura naked made me want to do more and why I did what I did next I still don't know. She bent over and her bum was almost in my face, I leaned over and kissed it. She didn't move and I kissed it again, this time I ran my tongue up and down the crack of her bum, I used to do this with my husband and he loved it. I knew I had just crossed a line and as I moved my head away she turned round and looked at me, I knew right away she was OK because her smile was wide. She sat next to me and leaned over and kissed me. She pulled away and told me she had wanted to kiss me since we first met. We kissed a lot that day but nothing else, Laura said she had been hurt so many times before and wanted to take things slow.
I was at the pub one night and after closing she took me to her room, we got naked and she made love to me, this was so unlike the lovemaking I had done with my husband, she was so gentle and when she went down on me it was unlike anything I had before. My husband almost never did that but her mouth and tongue took me to a place I had never been before, I came so many times and was so loud doing it. A lot of that night is a total blur because of the whole bottle of gin I had drank, but I do remember going down on her for the first time, I stopped short and she puled my head in, her pussy was so wet and my tongue found her pussy and I worked my tongue into it, finding her clit and with my hand I pushed a finger into her bum, another thing I did with my husband, she loved it as much as he did. We swapped places a few times before falling asleep. I woke the next morning and she had left me a note saying she had gone shopping. I went to the kitchen, still naked. And Karen came in behind me, she laughed and said that me and mum had kept her up all night with the screams. I said sorry but she said not to worry and that it had helped her masturbate. I was a little shocked and as she walked past me she gave me a little pat on my bum.

I will carry on later sorry my fingers are too wet to carry on

"I'm messed up..." yet again. Sorry about a third thread. The initial post appeared in a second thread, but then I tried to paste the rest in reply and again nothing. So I will try here yet again with an initial post.

Trying again, nothing is showing up (why I write in Notepad!)

Hi again and thanks Brian, W and R! I feel one of those hangovers where you spill your guts and then you wake up thinking fuck I didn't say what I mean at all, so it might take some time (or more wine LOL) to hit my stride again to keep going tonight. OK well school had started again so it wasn't like during the summer I couldn't see them that much, usually weekends and sometimes once a week we'd meet close to where my school was in the parking lot of a cool mall that was in a converted old theater. If his wife wasn't home now and then we'd go to "John's" house but Saturdays she was usually there or going someplace where he didn't know for sure when she's be back and so a lot of the time we just went out. He was nervous about that I guess but I guess I seemed like his daughter even though Karen didn't look anything like me. He didn't seem like a monster anymore and she was really pretty to me again but I couldn't get that vision out of my mind ever either, plus he was different and that's one thing where I'm not sure my memory's not playing tricks on me, I mean -- maybe I was more different than they were because of what I saw that day? But I don't remember him being so... commanding I guess, before then. I mean I felt like I had to do what he said even if I didn't want to and the stuff he gave me it was like all of a sudden more like I was getting it becaise I let him do something, I mean like go to the rest room and take your panties off and I have something for you kind of but it's not like he came right out to say that it's how I felt though and that made me feel really bad. And the pace picked up, too, like if I didn't answer his questions it was OK we're going now. He asked me lots and lots of questions and told me all sorts of stuff and some of it I didn't believe but then after I would like half-believe it or that one part of me would like I wasn't sure about anything anymore and I mean I guess that's not that weird because of being that age anyway it's supposed to be confusing then? It's like he was telling me who I was and I wasn't anybody then.

He asked me about cutting and he even got me to tell him about playing with my butt and the worst part was telling him about Mr Thermometer because he'd like made me promise so hard never to tell and that was like deep in me I mean I could keep secrets and I took promises seriously but in other words John made me tell him everything usually at really nice restairants like where there was more privacy like sitting there and analyzing me and maybe that's why I do it to myself so much. You know by then my dirtiest secret wasnt the sex stuff it was puking and cutting and laxatives. I was losing weight but I was getting taller too I wasn't awkward but gangly and some people could tell there was something wrong with me and I remember even some guys who stared at me like they wanted to do things to me like they were disgusted too I mean theyd look at how skinny my arms were and give me a look like I was sick like pity and lust and revulsion all at the same time and teachers at school asked me about my weight and I would clam up totally and other kids started picking on me and I'd go home and look at fashion magazines and think how stupid they were because I would be in there and they were fat. But I tried to pretend like that nobody knew how I got so skinny. Part of me wanted to grow up faster thats normal too I guess LOL and so I was upset because nothing was happening, I mean I still didnt have any hair and my hips didnt get wider and I didnt bleed. When we did go to their house I felt trapped and things went way too fast I cried sometimes and he would hush me and I still remember him telling me to kiss it and the taste and you know even then there was still a part of me that liked it, I mean I felt like I should suck dick or that's what he told me to feel and it's like that part of me got bigger, like I said it was the Cindy part later he called me Cynthia though because I liked it better and it's not like everything was terrible he like helped me believe in myself too I mean he told me I really would be a model that I was prettier than the girls in the magazines and graceful and here's something I wanted to say before sometimes I thought like I wanted to be in Vogue I mean like not be anywhere else just be likeglossy and paper thin LOL, like I'd even sleep like that like in a picture. Like I said, hard to explain!

He also told me I wasn't stupid and he gave me stuff to read, great stuff like Story of O and I started to feel superior LOL. Part of me did anyway, remember I was still a kid and this was just twice a week at most the rest of the time my stepdad and Mom and school and OK the next thing is I was spaced out probably thinking about sucking and this teacher started yelling at me and I got wet. Like I was really far away and whatever I was thinking was probably sexy but I got wet 'cause he yelled at me. Like I said I didn't get too wet yet then but still I felt really funny about it and it happened again and one time my stepfather yelled at me and it happened too not as strong but it was like I liked it or my pussy liked it anyway.

I guess I sound like I was gloomy, but that would give the wrong impression, too; I DIDN'T belong to him, I mean I still loved getting stared at and even though I mostly thought about the things he made me do mostly sucking mostly on my knees looking up at him I had to and then during Xmas break he made me suck his finger after it was in my butt -- I didn't just think about that I thought about other guys too, not guys my age I NEVER thought about them but other older guys, guys who checked me out. It was winter and I didnt dress in revealing things because it was fucking cold LOL but tight jeans mostly and I copied the makeup in the magazines so I thought I was elegant but I guess I looked like a kid who was trying to be an adult. Like I said a lot of people looked at me not like they wanted me but like they thought I was sick and sometimes both and that winter I didnt have any friends at all. I still thought about girls sometimes too, not a lot. He made me touch Karen and she touched me but even though she was pretty I wasn't into her that much, I mean I didn't think about her when I played with myself and after the curiosity was over I mean like the first times just it was exciting to see her body then I didn''t want to do stuff with her I did only because he said to. But I still fantasized about girls in the fashion magazines and sometimes girls I'd see like at the pool. So I wasn't always gloomy I wasn't having FUN but even now I don't think sex (and I mean all of it, from fantasies to exhanging looks not just fucking and sucking) should be FUN. I think it's serious, I take it seriously, like you know in French an orgasm is called a little death and death is not FUN (OK maybe if you're Irish LOL).

Ok I want to write this down and tell people just because i still can't believe it myself, I will not put real names or pictures up but for those of you who doubt me then just don't comment but those of you who like it please comment and let me know what you think.
My name is Karen im 44 and have been divorced and raising my twin daughters (Jenny & Julie both now 18) for the past 8 years. Since my divorce i have not had much in the way of romance or sex if truth be told, and we struggled to make ends meet, but this year my aunt passed away and left me some money so i decided to take my girls on a holiday to somewhere nice and sunny. And in August we flew off to Zante in Greece.
We had booked our own villa with our own pool, and both my girls were so excited.
It was late evening when we got there but it was still very hot, we were still in our traveling clothes and they were far to warm for where we are, as soon as we unpacked the girls changed into their bikinis and were in the pool before i even had a chance to look around, it was then i noticed the mistake they made buying them, Jenny had on a nice pale yellow one but as soon as it was wet it hid nothing at all and Julie was worse her white one was almost see through but as we were enclosed and private i didn't mind and they just thought it was funny, i put on my one piece and joined them in the pool. That night we spent swimming and talking about what we should do.
The next day we had to go shopping for food and since the girls were now 18 some booze too. actually quite a lot of booze, it was so cheep. It was about 2pm when we got back from the shops and we decided just to chill out by the pool, the girls talked me into putting my bikini on and i have to say i still have a quite nice body for my age, i have never had big boobs god knows where my girls got their big boobs from but it wasn't me. There was a little bit envy on my part but hey thats life. Our pool was totally enclosed by a large fence and no one could see in, one reason i put my bikini on. But we could hear the people in the next door villa. Julie has always been the more out going of the two and she was soon drinking the wine we have got, and we all started to get very tipsy. Julie took off her bikini top and soon talked Jenny into it too, they tried to get me to do it but i was no where near drunk enough for that, now nudity is nothing new at our home and we often go naked at home, the girls were soon swimming naked, we drank more wine and it was enough for me to go naked poolside too. Julie asked me if i was looking for a holiday romance and i couldn't stop myself laughing i told her that i had almost given up on that now, she said i was stupid because she thought i was still young enough and pretty enough too, she said she was going to make it her mission to find me a man on this holiday i laughed and said who said i wanted a man, the evil of booze i had just slipped up and she kept pushing me on that statement and well the booze made my mouth say things that i would never have said otherwise. I told them that before i met their dad i was in a relationship with another girl, i thought that would shock them but they both laughed at me and they told me they had both been with other girls too. It was the most open i had ever been with them and i told them how it all started for me then they shocked me by telling me about what they did, they had even had threesoms together. Maybe we all had a little too much wine that night, i went to bed and fingered my pussy silly.
So the next day we went to the beach we did all the usual tourist stuff but the beach was quite crowded so we decided to go to a bar instead, we spent that night drinking and dancing and both my girls attracted a lot of male attention, i got talking to the girl behind the bar, she was a Welsh girl (Tina) who was working there for the summer, she was a very pretty red head and while chatting to her i almost missed my girls telling me that they would be back in an hour or so. and off they went with 2 very handsome men. It was getting very late and i was getting a bit worried about the girls and there was only a few people left in the bar, i was just about to phone them when they turned up looking like cats who had just stole the cream. Tina took my hand and said she had told me they would be ok and gave us all another drink, i thought she was closed and she said she was and kicked the last of the people out and closed the doors, so we drank a little more and both my girls knew before i did that Tina was into me, and i felt very flattered but still not sure i was ready for that, but my girls had other ideas and pushed Tina into me, she took the chance and kissed me, just a small one but it made me feel so excited, we drank a little more and i got bolder and was soon making out with Tina like a schoolgirl. She had her hands all over my body and pulled my top off followed by my bikini top, i did try to stop it there but she was not taking no for an answer, she got me to sit on the bar and she took off my bikini bottoms, it was then i remembered about my girls, they were both watching me and smiling, then Tina went down on me , she was the first person to do that to me for well over 10 years, i was then lost in the moment, and she made me cum so quick i was shocked, it was then my turn to go down on her, i was by then quite drunk and didn't care that my girls were watching, i looked up at Tina and saw Jenny was sucking on one of her nipples and Julie was kissing her, she grabbed my head and pushed me back into her pussy, i licked for all i was worth and she came she squirted over my face, i lay back on the floor totally exhausted.
We got dressed and Tina put us in a taxi and told us to come back anytime, i cant really remember getting back to the villa and when i woke the next day i was so hungover it was almost an hour before i remembered what happened. I was scared to go down but couldn't put it off any longer, both my girls were poolside and asked if i was ok? and was i happy to have got laid, i said yes to both but did feel a little weird that they had both been there too, Julie said not to worry and now that i had done it once there was no reason not to do it again or even find a man to fuck.
The girls wanted to go out again that night but i needed a day off the booze, so they went out by themselves, they got back about 4am with a man in tow, i could hear everything, they shared him both taking turns, it got me so turned on i was fingering myself
The next morning i was first down and i didn't bother dressing i thought the man would have left, got a bit of a shock when he came down with Julie, she was naked he was dressed and as he was leaving he saw me, he just smiled and Julie came over and said i was getting very relaxed, i told her i had never felt so free, Jenny came down also nude, and right off i could see she had taken more of the guy her pussy was all red and puffy, We spent that day next to the pool we were all naked and our tans were coming on nicely
That night we went back the the bar Tina worked at, She was very glad to see us and i asked her to come back to the villa with me that night, she told her boss that she wanted the night off, he said she could and i told the girls i was going back with her and they should enjoy the night out but they said they wanted to come too so we all went back. What i didn't know then was the girls had planned all this with Tina the night before. As soon as we got back my girls and Tina stripped off, they looked at me and i thought what the hell and i stripped. I sat on the couch and Julie sat next to me then Jenny on the other side, the pulled my legs open and Tina went down on me, Tina took it in turns to lick us all, i was so turned on watching my girls get licked then we all took it in turns to lick Tina, we drank and played all night too much to tell here.
She slept with me that night, some sex but it was so nice just to be close to someone again.
The next day we were flying home, and Tina came to see us off i gave her my address and she said she will come and visit when the summer is over.
My girls have now made it their mission to get me laid by a man and even as i type this they are working on one of their friends dads i wonder where this will end but i want to put this on here just to make it more real because it still feels like a dream to me
I will post more as it happens