I want to get clean. I don't want to be perverted any more. I just want to get back to a normal sex life. I'm only 18, I don't want to get any worse.

I want to stop being interested in young stuff or incests or anything like that. Even shemale or gays or cross dressing or whatever.

I just want to be satisified fucking one girl and be happy with that. How can I stop being so perverted? It's like i'm a porn addict, but the issue is too taboo to discuss.

If someone a heroin addict, at least they can talk about it and get help. But, if you're addicted to sick stuff, there's no one you can tell without judging you, and there's no one you can talk to if your stuff is borderline illegal.

I've really got to stop this. I havn't DONE anything illegal yet, but I'm really worried because I've been tempted when I'm with my niece or even nephew. I've ignored these dark thoughts, but I can't deny that they are there.

I suppose it's exceptionally difficult for me, being a victim of molestation when I was little really did fuck up my head. But I just want to get normal?? How can I? I could never live with myself if I ruined someone life like mine was ruined.

I've also recently read a story of a friend of a friend who someone worked with got sent down for young download charges including rape and making porn. I don't want that to happen to me so I have to stop now.

It's just that I've always liked girls, ever since I was like 8 shortly after I got molested I've wanted to do things girl who's the same age, and that feeling has never gone away. Even if not to penetrate I just feel some sort of incomprehensible lust towards them which I wish would stop.

I just want to be normal! Please how can I stop? I know a perverted website isn't the best place to ask, but there must be someone out there that knows what to do.

The Surprise

The legality of nude beaches in Australia can get complicated at times. There are conflicting federal, state and locals laws. There are four legal nude beaches in the state of Victoria, but there are several that are not legal. At some beaches you can get arrested for going topless. At other beaches you won’t get arrested for going topless, but you will if you go completely nude. And at other beaches you can be as nude as you want as long as no one complains. Confusing? Yes it is.

My roomies and I have become well known at the four legal nude beaches. Sometimes I find it necessary to go to the, I’ll call them iffy beaches. I made a lot of money for my previous escapade selling photo sets of nude blokes to an American gay magazine. I split the money with my roomie Kelli. She was a huge help. I guess my photos must have made an impact in the American gay community because I have another contract for more photos sets and videos of Aussie blokes.

Kelli and I decided to go to one of those iffy beaches where we aren’t known. Perish the thought if a bloke found out he was in a gay magazine. I would fear for my life. (I’m laughing)

That is one reason I insist on signed releases and requiring that the subjects of my photos and videos accept compensation (money) for their services.

Okay, the beach we picked was about 60 km away. I won’t mention the name of the beach. I don’t want to publicise it. Some do-gooder will complain and try to shut it down.

We arrived around noon. This was a Tuesday and the beach was crowded due to spring break. It was a young crowd and there were hard bodies from both sexes all over the beach. I couldn’t tell what sex a few of them were.

We didn’t want to stay in the populated part of the beach, so we decided to take a walk north until the crowds thinned. The farther we walked, the more people were naked. After about 15 minutes Kelli and I got naked and our suits went into our beach bag.

It started out to be a pretty good day. We found two good looking blokes right away that accepted the money and I shot a series of about 250 of each of them. We then continued down the beach. Heads were turning when they saw two nude blondes walk by. We kind of enjoyed it. Actually we loved the attention. We would be disappointed if they didn’t look.

With all the attention we were getting, we felt like Grand Marshals in a parade. We were waving to the right and waving at the blokes to the left and we weren’t paying attention at what was in front of us. We got back to reality when someone in a loud voice said, “Kelli!”

We looked up and Kelli said, “Oh my God, it’s my brother! I’m standing naked in front of my brother. Oh shit, he’s with his mates (Friends).” Kelli’s brother and his mates were nude and apparently Kelli and her 18 year old brother were looking at each other’s nude bodies for the first time. Kelli was embarrassed, but it kind of turned me on. I don’t know why, but it was probably some pornographic taboo.

Kelli grabbed the beach bag from me and pulled out her tee shirt and slipped it on. The shirt barely covered her crotch, but she didn’t put on her swimsuit bottoms right away. I think she was teasing her brother’s mates with her bottom half showing.

Her brother’s mates began to laugh and tease her and she fired back calling their penises small and back and forth the insults flew. Evidently Kelli and her brother grew up with these blokes and she had been the victim of bullying and other childish things in the past.

I whispered in Kelli’s ear that this could be a blessing. I explained to them why we were here and offered them money to pose. Kelli and her brother both had put their swimsuits back on, but the 3 blokes and myself were still nude. I told them I was making a photo album and also wanted a few videos for my personal use and I like their looks and their bodies. I even agreed to pose with them.

These blokes weren’t the sharpest knives in the drawer when it came to brains. I shot sets of each one individually and then I shot a few more sets with two of them together and some sets of all three at once. I had then flexing their muscles and I got several shots when they had erections and I quickly got group shots of all three with erections. I then had Kelli shoot a few sets of me with them in seductive poses. I posed in a way that I could photo shop myself out of a lot of them so it appeared that they were hot for each other. I also made several videos.

While I was photographing the three dumb blokes I saw Kelli and her brother walk down the beach holding hands. They were both nude! No towel or beach bags, just 2 nude people with nothing to hide. They were gone for about 45 minutes. When they returned she wouldn’t tell me what they did. She just smiled and changed the subject. Even on the way home and back at the apartment she wouldn’t tell me what they did, if anything.

I must have had over thirty 100 plus photo sets when I thought we should stop while we were ahead. Kelli and I left with signed release forms for her brother’s 3 mates that indicated they had received compensation for their work. There were no photos taken of Kelli and her brother.

We got out of there as fast as we could without making it look like we were fleeing. We laughed all the way home at the thought of those 3 jerks being in a gay magazine. For all the years of abuse Kelli had endured, she got more that even that day.

She finally told me a few days later that he is her step-brother. Even though they aren’t blood related, they were raised together since they were three years old. She never told me anything about their walk down the beach.

Copyright © 2014 by Matilda Scully

All Rights Reserved

Well, I'm going to confess to you about my terrible nylon fetish, you can read this if it turns you on because this is completely true. I didn't really mean to, but I've ended up writing a lot including about the time I was raped. So, if this shit turns you on, read on, but if you're fantasising about it I don't want to know because this did happen to me and it is painful to think about.

I'm a straight male teen, but I really want some nylons to wear. I hate how my body is starting to bulk and become more triangular, I also hate my bodily hair but don't want to shave it off or i'll be made fun of. I love having long legs and want to "neutral" looking slim body for a while but can't. I actually detest the male body, including my own, which is probably the explanation for my nylon fetish.

I really want to get some new nylons, but I'm too embarrassed to buy them from a store and my mail is always intercepted before it gets to me so I can't get anything online. I hate it, the ones I have no are ripped and stretched too much and stained and don't look sexy at all. I'm considering going out of town to buy nylons and just gritting my teeth about the embarrassment.

Despite all this, I don't actually like having this fetish at all. It possesses me, I have an alter ego. I call her Jess. Jess comes out when wear nylons, or sometimes, if I smoke cannabis, I become jess for real and put on a girls voice and act very girly.

I have this terrible nylon fetish. I think I have it for these reasons:
- Both of my old sisters (12 and 15 years older than me) used to carry me around on their feet when I was little, often whilst they wore nylon. I'd straddle their feet and they would "walk" with me. I used to love the feel of their nylon. I was a strange child, I remember being 6 or 7 and writing on a board in my room about wanting to have sex with a girl in my class, and how embarrassed I was when my sister read it and then would tease me about it. I can remember one time when I was about 7, I went into my sisters bedroom when I couldn't sleep and got into the younger of my two sisters beds and began cuddling her because I wanted sex, she must have been about 16 at the time. I kissed her on the cheek a few times and put my arms around her chest telling her I was cold. Nothing happened, she just acted innocently and carried me back to my bed, sat and talked to me for a while about general stuff (i don't remember what, nothing exciting) and then gave me one of the blankets from her bed.

- I used to steal their nylons, and got caught several times. I was always told they were not for boys, and that made them strictly taboo, and therefore more exciting. When asked why I couldn't describe why, I just said "they feel nice" and that was probably all I knew, because I didn't know much about sexual feelings at all.

- I don't find men attractive. I hate the male body, including my own. I think this is probably because when I was 8, I got molested by a 13 year old boy.

I've never told anyone this in real life, but I've posted it on here a few times. This is a genuine story and I'm not getting a kick out of writing this, it's a confession, coming from one fucked up person, so you can get a look into my physce and maybe understand why I'm in the dark corners of the internet. This boy was an older brother of a friend at school. Basically, I used to see his younger brother a lot as we were close friends and he would come to my house often, nothing gay we were just friends. During the summer I had a pool in my garden and he and his older brother came round.

Well, it was warm and we were in swim shorts, and the younger brother went to the toilet inside the house. This left me and his older brother in the garden shed (it's like a summer house) with his brother and he started telling me all these secrets that his brother and had told him about me. Petty stuff, like which girls I fancied, what trouble I had been in at school - he never knew about the nylons.

This boy picked up hammer that was in the shed and then threatened me to suck his cock. He never actually hit me, and that's what I'm ashamed of, but I was young and intimidated he was overwhelming me with blackmailed. This boy rolled down his trousers and told me to suck his dick unless he wanted everyone to know my secrets. I said I didn't want to and he started shouting at me. I was in the corner of the room and I did it. I didn't cry, I didn't feel anything, I just did it. I remember that taste, it didn't feel erotic at all, it just kind of felt like a finger. I didn't pull his foreskin back and he was still flaccid or maybe a semi. He didn't cum, and only did it 3 or 4 times. Maybe I was really bad at pleasing him, or maybe he came to his senses, or maybe he was interrupted. I don't remember everything, but he laughed at me and left and said don't tell anyone about this or I'll tell everyone you're gay for sucking a cock.

He stood there laughing and then walked out the garden. I was about to burst into tears and his brother returned and asked me what happened. I said nothing happened. He really wanted to know and I just yelled at him to get lost. He and his brother left.

I really hate that guy. He got away with violating me. He's made me question my sexuality for years and he's fucked me up emotionally. What else is very annoying, is he has a beautiful, absolutely stunning, girlfriend who's 4 years younger than him.

There is no karma is this world. He's got a beautiful girlfriend, while I'm a fucking creep with trust issues, sulking in the corner of the internet, questioning my own sexuality because he ruined my childhood. I've tried to kill myself many times, and considered finding a way to take him with me, but I've never had the guts to do any of it.

I struggle to trust anyone and I hate the male phesque. It makes me question my whole sexuality because of that. Basically, I want to be a girl because I hate men, including myself. The only way I feel femine and happy is with nylon. It lets me escape who I am and I become someone else.

I have considered what it I would need to have a sex change multiple times. I don't feel like I'm close to any of my family members (not even my sisters any more, they moved out when I was about 10 and I barely see them. They probably couldn't wait to get away from me). I often think though when my parents die, I'd have a sex change. However, being exceptionally tall at approximately 6ft 4, I'd hardly pass for female.

I really don't know what I should do. I guess this is just a confession rather than a question. I full expect a bunch of perverts with no morals at all to come troll me now or to call me a fag or gay. I'd rather you didn't, but hey this is the internet and I can't physically stop you, but maybe you'd understand why I am this way.

To nearly everyone, I'm a straight attractive slim tall male who does ok in society. No one knows about my dark secrets. I don't act gay or camp, or look female at all.

Gay bashing vids are taboo on every site. Violence oriented sites like Macho Video ban them. Extreme sex sites like Motherless ban them. It is ok to show beheadings, gang murders, IED explosions on viollence sites....it is ok to show gang rape, extreme BDSM, and scat on extreme sex sites. But gay bashing vids are banned? Gay bashings are all over the news, the stuff coming out of Russia is extremely violent and inhuman but no site I know of goes near them-and i look at the gratuitous violence and extreme porn sites. It seems a little hypocritical to show vids of beheadings but not be willing to show the truth of anti-gay violence.

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I confess that anyone who says some variation of the following "I'm 100% straight but I would have sex with another man", is gay.

Now, homosexuality, is no longer the taboo that it once was, and in some circles, it's considered chic.

My advice is to embrace your gay side and go out and have hot man on man sex.

I don't where else to post this, or whom it may interest. Peter Christopherson (aka Sleazy) of the band COIL has passed away (11/24/2010). This is a very sad day for me. Both founding members have now passed on, COIL were big supporters of the gay community & several taboo subjects as well. Anyone out there who has an interest should check out their video for their version of "Tainted Love". It's available on YouTube. I can't seem to post the link here. Anyway, I'm gonna go cry some more. Sorry if this post is a bummer to anyone. But this news saddens me. :(

DAMN YOU MOTHERLESS!!!
you used to be my friend!
why have you betrayed me!
everywhere i look i see scat, animal, old, fat, ugly, gay, or otherwise unpalatable porno. AND THATS A GOOD THING!!! this is a fucking moral free zone! that means EVERYTHING is okay and nothing is taboo. so why are all of these staples of the perverted and depraved allowed, but my little girlies arent? do you WANT me to rape small children? bcuz this site is about all thats stopping me.

now watch the majik. trolls will be fed.

I hope I won't get too harshly judged for this, as it is meant to be a moral free zone. But, it does seem that from the short time that I have been visiting this site there seems to be a bit of a taboo regarding homosexuality on here. If you are against homosexual acts, then I wouldn't continue reading.

I am 19 years old and still a virgin. On top of that I have little chance of getting laid as I don't have the nerve to talk to women, the looks that would attract them or the money for a prostitute.

My question is, has anyone or would anyone go to the length of having gay sex even though they aren't attracted to men, just so they lose their virginity. My best friend is gay and drags me out to the gay district near where I live almost every week and ends up hooking up with guys. During this time I get a lot of attention from men trying to buy me drinks. On top of that my friend always drops hints about wanting to fuck me. I don't know if they are serious or jokey sometimes, but it seems he does them a lot.

Do straight men enjoy gay sex? I assume many can if pegging is anything to go by. Gay sex doesn't disgust me even though I am not attracted to men, so should I go for it?

I have always fantasized about having a threesome with my wife and another hot girl, but I never thought there was a real chance of it until recently.

My wife comes from a culture with a strong taboo against cunnilingus. I took me years to get her to let me eat her out to completion, although now she really loves it.

On the day before my birthday, I had just finished eating and fucking her through a series of orgasms, and I was cuddling her from behind rubbing my cock into her asscrack and massaging her tits preparing to start on another round, Surprisingly, she got really worked up and started kissing her way down my body, and began licking and sucking my dick. She'd never sucked me after sex before, and would only take me in her mouth if I was fresh from the shower.

This time was different. She immediately began moaning in lusty pleasure as she cleaned her cunt cream off my prick, and rapidly got more worked up than I'd ever seen her before. After she licked up every drop, she immediately climbed on top of me and rode me hard until she had another orgasm, then she returned to obsessively sucking her hot juices off my hard rod.

Suddenly I heard a soft knocking, and I told my wife there was someone at the door, but she just started sucking harder. About 15 seconds later, there was an insistent knocking on our bedroom window, and her mother started telling her to get her lazy ass out of bed and let her in. I started laughing hard and lost my erection, so we quickly got dressed and helped her mother out.

Afterwards, she blushingly told me that all the times I told her how good her pussy tastes, and when I called it my special dessert, she thought I was just flattering her. But now that she's tried it, she really can't get enough. It seems her old boyfriend from 16 years ago had a bit of a BO problem, and when he forced her to clean him off after he had cum inside her, it tasted really bad. But I didn't cum, and all she got was the clean, musky taste of pussy with just a drop of pre-cum.

I still have a bit of a hurdle to get over, in that she has a turn-off about lesbianism, even though she loves to get eaten out and has started craving the taste of cunt cream. I guess I need to try the "It;s not gay if..."

It's not gay if your husband is gently fucking your ass as he teases your nipples and whispers in ear how much he loves you...
while you 69 your slutty divorced friend...

Hey, Ive been on motherless for awhile and wanted to confess what I am into. I never thought I would post. I am a 25/m heterosexual male who is curious. If i posted in wrong section my apologies.

Ps. My girlfriend has no idea i post.)

-girls in leggings/spandex ( the way their ass looks as they walk), When i see girls walking to class in makes me so hard. This is my favorite
-girls in bikinis ( the materials, they make me so hard and i just want to jack off with them, i dont want to fuck the girls its just the image of them in bikinis it just gets me, it makes my dick so hard), I can watch them walk all day
-girls in bikinis/leggings (voyeur, not to a super creeepy point)
-shemales ( Latinas, the taboo nature makes me so hard. If they can pass it makes me want to experience, i am not gay its just hot
-young girls booty shaking, Thongs, booty shorts, you name it i love it

*18+

Please let me know i am not the only one. I have a gf who i plan to marry (someday) but i am so turned on to girls in bikinis and shemales i dont know what to do. I cannot be the only one. I read many thing i am into but nothing has hit the nail head on. Thanks i would love comments etc...