I confess that last night after my girlfriend went to bed, I began jerking to some porn to relieve some much needed tension. When I masturbate I get tons of exotic ideas in my head such as woman on woman, man on man, man on trans and I get tons of fetishes like swallowing huge loads, cream pies, or gang bangs.

This kinda night I was feeling a little 'gay' to be blunt. I was strolling through CL trying to pick up a guy for a quick car blowing, but it was 4AM and I wasn't getting any biters. I never done anything homoerotic before, but was always curious to see what it was like. Without any luck, I came across a porn section called CEI. The girls in the videos looked cute, but I didn't like the humiliation scenes. I finally found a vid where a girl was talking about CEI and wasn't in a demanding or degrading manner. I laid down in front of my couch, lifted my legs up so my feet were passed my head. Sitting there stroking all 7" of my manhood and wanting the little swimmers to spray all over my face. Right before I came, I had a naughty thought pass through my head and said fuck it!! I opened my mouth wide as my dick was only an inch away from my eager tongue. I stroked to the video and when she told me to cum, I did. All in my mouth and on the front of my chin, down to my neck and upper chest. It was more liquid than cream, and without hesitation took a big gulp of the half-shot of warm seed in my mouth. I have been eating a lot of fruit and have been on a healthy diet the past month. To my surprise it tasted sweet. I used my hands to grab what was left on my chin, went to clean up, and laid there in bed with my girlfriend. Maybe tonight I will get her to swallow and we can share?

so last night i got very very very horny looking at sissy porn along with some of my favorite female pornstars who i feel really ABSOLUTELY LOOOOOOVE and really own stretching their not only beautiful but goddess-level and tight AF pussies that definitely got me to the slutty submissive masochistic level of horniness i reached after completely feminizing myself by shaving, doing makeup. fake lashes, lipstick, hair bows, goth girl lingerie and masturbating myself to orgasms at least 10 times looking through some well-put together sissy caption galleries that kept helpong me fantasize about being pushed to transition myself so i could be the slutty fem i feel like inside, getting degraded by dominant men who put me in my place by splattering me back to back with cum, making me eat as much as i can, reminding me to keep my flaccid 2in cock hidden in my cum soaked panties till they decide i can jack off onto myself then to think about how good it must feel to have a pussy as a woman, what all those sizes feel like, how long it has been since i stretched or got to feel something deep in mine because i no longer have parts of my toy sets, and most of all how much i would reallly love to one day be able to get creampied and feel cum matted in my hair, dripping down my face to mix with drool in my mouth, then dribble from my chin y
to my chest.

This black plug is about 6in tall with a girth of over 9in. My usual plug is at 6in girth and even that one has definitely got a painful stretch accompanied by that pop of your asshole triying to recoil back closed once you pass the lip of a plug but i had trained myself to register the pain from the pink plug's pop as something that makes me feel like such a submissive-bratty slut so i decided that since i was a little stretched out from leaving that plug in almost all day and night that i was going to take advantage and see how much pain i could could take and maybe get to take a humiliating picture of this plug filling my hole to a girth that is girthier than almost every dick on the entire planet. I found it very difficult to keep trying to go deeper but as i worked myself up and down, i fould that it started to change into pleasure that gave me chills like i was suddenly transported to a walk in refrigerator and the only way to get warmth was to fuck it with this animalistic instinct moving my hips up and down, making spiral patterns with my ass on each up and down motion. This inner slut spirit in me has clearly been depraved and the arousal i got from doing this for at least the next 20-30 minutes caused my limp tiny cock to pour q constant leak of precum pouring all the way to the floor way to the floor for about 15 minutes til i git up and decided to try every position i could to make my guts open up more inside. furthest i could get was about 1 inch from the bottom which made me feel so fucking desperate to be punished with the pain of it just popping in but it just kept hitting a dead end that would was pushing with such force along with the insane amount of lube i used that i knew if i let go, that it would pop out of me like i was a slutty sissy cum champagne bottle popping a cork 🤣😄😄 Thankfully i felt myself about to orgasm (my very first sissygasm actually because i did it all with just anal stimulation which basically bukkaked my stomach, it made left me so disoriented with prolonged waves of pleasure followed by trembles, but made me have to lay shamefully completely soaked in sweat, lube, and cum that didnt stop leaking out if me til around 7 mins after i had that orgasm hit. My asshole is was gaped for quite a while and i had to eventually strain kegels through my ass muscles to keeo myself from worrying about if i was leaking lube onto my floor.

I have never in my life felt so degraded, submissive, humiliated, pleasured, or more in tou h with the slutty trans girl i fantasize about being. Honestly I would love for the readers to keep that spirit foing by dropping some comments that degrade, humiliate, emasculate, and make me feel like im a dumb little slut who should keep trainig my mouth and ass further down the road of being a submissive sex slave cuckold toy to some dom goddesses or gods. wierd how addictive it is to dream about how badly it gets me off thinking about being a fluffer - voyeur for people who are obviously superior to give each other the sex they deserve while i experience that bliss of torture from denial and control. What can I say? im a hot mess who got the wrong biology for the girl i feel like inside. [s][s]

Didn't know if I wanted to post this anon or not but whatever:

So I confess, basically last week I sent a friend request to this guy who doesn't like trans guys or black guys (unless they liked extreme raceplay - his words not mine) which is fine I don't care but he had some videos I wanted to see and they were private to anyone that wasn't friends with him so I sent a request anyways, the worst he could do was reject my request. So the next day I check and he accepts it but then unfriends me, I was then notified of a comment he made saying: This is perfect evidence of how deeply sick US Dumpster society is : a monstrous, demented, modified WOMAN GETTING FUCKED BY AN APPALLING MONKEY. ---- In translation basically, it was a video of a trans guy (ftm) getting fucked by a black guy.

So honestly I didn't care but I did feel like his comment was unnecessary so I decided to send him a message that made me sound desperate and see if he would fall for the bait. And fall he did...I sent this: Hi, yes yes I know you think we ftm are sick gross disgusting, and "monstrous" but please please give me 24hrs to cum to your videos. I've watched all your public videos that I like I just wanna watch some of your private then you can never hear from me again. I'm literally just a random sick-in-the-head black guy (though u see me as a woman), a dick-deprived chronic masturbator who dreams of being destroyed by White and Arab dick. The thought of sex with other blacks grosses me out but having all my holes destroyed by BWC and huge Arab dick, hell even hung Asian cocks, turns me, I want them to cum and piss down my throat to the point I can't breathe and when I pass out they continue to r@pe my ass and pussy with their stinky cheese cocks. F0rce me to get pregnant to remind me of my place and call me every bad name and slur in the book and just to be used like the fucked up fleshlight sex toy slave meat bag I am (fuck even typing all that got me wet). So please just give me 24hrs I promise 100% swear you'll never hear from me again you just keep popping up in friend lists of my other friends and in some of my favorite videos, and your comments turn me on. Please please please I beg you!!!!

Needless to say, he sent ME a friend request and I have been holding him, hostage, ever since as on that porn site once you send a request you can't unsend it. Oh, and I was half telling the truth when typing that message so most of it isn't a complete lie as I do want someone to use me haha.