They say don’t tell Sadist that you are dying don’t beg to much even my Master told me that.. that He will make me wait more when i am begging like crazy as He would taste the power He have on me. But in this dynamic I cannot stop myself from being honest and so far i exposed my deepest feelings and i felt brave as i read comments about it. What my troubled pet head thinks is.. it was strange my Master asked me how to break me.. coincidence? .. but then i get worried something bad happened i do care a lot, regardless is He my Master or not.. I want Him very happy and feeling well.. then I worry about my heart it needs to know when it’s over and not wait like in past. It got more involved.. and things changed my Master took me unlike past and now i.. I can’t bare to be on same like when we starting and when it was kinda more like a play thing.. every second of not knowing that is very long.. and I’m thinking how much i am molded i can’t move on even if You would wait for me to do that not letting me know.. I can’t unless You tell me to.. and You know how much my head is crazy and how much You have hold and how much i want Your reminders and how much I find something in You wrong or not that it fits with me.. I’ll be good I promise whatever You tell me.. You know i behave and not attacking You or so.. please don’t let me live in hell of not knowing for long. It has deep impact I know not smart to say. But You always liked honesty and i hope mine will just.. I don’t want to pole Sadist more because i am drowning and my lungs are very much full of water faster this time. I miss my collar and it’s weight that resembles You
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24 Aug 2023 5:57PM
I remembered ro take my meds today. I love you Emily. 💖💖💖
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26 Aug 2023 6:21AM
Means you notice in me some similarities with you perhaps.. I’m happy for you that you can love when you see something in someone else. However just because I know your state I want to tell you don’t dream about more. You sound like dreamer like myself
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25 Aug 2023 1:57PM
I would love to hear the sounds you make as you gurgle and drown for your master.
