I've never tried anal beads. My husband gives me oral sometimes but I just come like normal; it's probably like a 5-second thing at most (the orgasm).
KinkiestGirl
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I really wish I had a Sybian or could try one. I just found out about them recently and I am curious what it would be like. I've never experienced that long drawn-out orgasm and I would looove to.
> If you're afraid to tell your husband about your sexual desires, that doesn't bode well for your marriage.
That's what scares me but I'm not sure what to do about it. I feel like he would feel like my (new) desires are offensive.
And sometimes I feel guilty, like maybe if I had less free time these things wouldn't happen. When I worked full-time my mind was always on my job and I feel like I was happier, but we both agreed this was best.
And there's hundreds of other things I dream up but have no idea how to approach them. And yet I still feel some semblance of actual love for my husband and wouldn't want to disappoint him by bringing them up...
Has anyone else experienced the distinct sensation of coming to a crossroads in your sexuality? I wonder if this happens to other people...be hopelessly in love, get married young, subsist on standard sexuality for a few years and then feel this impossible-to-resist divergence. I couldn't dare tell my husband, but I feel close to no sexual attraction to him, at least as far as the standard sexual act is concerned. I try to meet people on Omegle but they seem trite and fake and overtly sexual, but I fantasize about meeting someone with depth, someone I could call before I fuck my husband, and leave the phone on speaker for him to hear us. Things like this turn me on so much. When they occur to me I am excited by them but I feel like I can't tell anyone, and I feel alone.
